"Mad Blues and Two Cats"

Naked on the floor
one last menthol cigarette
is cold, so cold tonight,
Halloween with creepy masks
walking in silence,
phosphorescent eyes
watching in the darkness,
pain that never heals,
dreams forever lost,
a river of blood flowing
invading the earth,
poppy flowers blooming,
you were there
you witnessed their pain,
the never ending pain
the misfits of this time…
broken hearted I lie here,
the point of no return
I died to many times
Before
with every second of my solitude,
with every cry
of the unborn children
killed by hunger and despair ,
two cats glowing in the shadow
and a Halloween mad blues
for a broken heart.
I am here...

"Black cat on the roadside"

Energy drinks,

one can, two, three

Who counts it anyway?

just keep me awake,

is night and we are on the road

going home,

the highway going deeper in the dark

the sky has yet no stars,

Guarana taste,

Guarana smell

I like it,

Guarana lip balm,

August summer sky,

“On the road”- haven’t read it

to add on the must do things before I die,

Night talking in my head,

friend talking,

Who cares?

“The Cure – Burn” haunting in my mind,

Black cat with wide green eyes

on the roadside

watching me,

on the way to the mountain of salt,

“burn” spinning through my thoughts,

I fell for a created image,

a ghost in the shell,

an illusion,

The road through forest on a summer day,

“What would you do if the night catches you

in a forest like this, would you be scared?”

words from a different summer,

different forest but still looking the same,

guarana taste on my lips,

aroma floating in the air,

no, I wouldn’t be scared,

the illusion is dead,

a black cat with big bright eyes

just on the side of the road,

again,

our way back home,

could be the same cat,

could be an error in Matrix,

who cares anyway,

“victims, aren’t we all”…

"Poem to my lover"

Rain falling this empty and cold night
Time contorting like a boa snake
unifying past and present with future
like in a Tarot game for royalties
sitting on the bank of Euphrates
I remember Babylon,
the beauty of all times
sadness invades my heart
Tokyo by night,
a blue moon rising over a lonely beach
the smoke of my cigarette,
I draw with henna on my hands
Mendhi,
life is just a journey in the land of the dead
elephants passing by into the Indian sunset,
the cycle of reincarnation,
in my room smoking,
this air of desolation invading everything,
Hannibal crossing the Alps with elephants
Roman Empire declining,
on the Southern Seas ghost ships crossing
the ships of Cristobal Colon still searching
the way to India,
I am tired to wait for you,
alligators go hunting in Everglades,
Utopia,
my dreams with flying fishes and orange moons,
can’t wait for you anymore,
I will send you postcards from uncharted places,
I will leave with the first ship to the Tropics,
just wait the monsoon,
my hunter from sad Tropics
I’ve waited for you in vain
now I will leave
Route 66 and the desert,
time is flowing chaotically,
in paradise angels eat ice-cream for angels,
I will no longer wait for you,
find me if you really love me,
my angel is on vacation,
rain still falling over the city of ghosts,
paintings of Chirico,
pink dolphins swimming in Amazon,
a car from 30’s,
endless number of human cells,
the intuition of the absolute in every raindrop,
rain falling over a battlefield,
the map of the human genome,
the unfinished cathedral of Gaudi,
I had a dream of you last night
you were so sad looking at me,
we are all seeking Paradise,
I will leave,
I’m tired of waiting, smoking my menthol cigarettes,
if you ever loved me
or still love me
Find me.

"Erotica"

I touch your skin soft like dark Chinese silk

with my fingertips

connected to your warmth

diving into your eyes

there’s no tomorrow

no today

no yesterday

a moment in space and time

closer and closer

I feel your breathing

hot, burning air,

drops of sweat

as I lick them slowly from your skin

your blood pulsating

your heartbeats under the skin

ribcage

tissues

blood

plasma

cells

muscle

electric impulses…

don’t care about you anymore

you are only a ghost

an obsession,

I hate you,

I want you

between these sheets your aroma

heat is a poison

an endless night so bitter and so bloody

your tongue down along my spine

licking and kissing

the delicate and pale skin

down to the lower back

the tribal dragonfly tattoo

your kisses burning like acid

I hate you,

I love you

this night with no tomorrow,

disconnect,

system shuts down

no more dreams

no more desires…

Poem~11

"Zen"

This air

is hot,

sticky like melted sugar,

like blood,

air of a night

flowing to nowhere…

right here in my room

breathing

I am,

you are,

night crawls with every cell

that dies,

here and now

there is no one breathing

just air of lonely night

sticky and toxic...

"The Messenger"

A crow flew over my heart.

I wasn’t sure if I was awake

or dreaming,

I was afraid the crow would think

that I am dead

and eat my flesh.

I was afraid but

in the same time

I was at peace

like numb

like didn’t care anymore

if I was alive or dead.

But the crow just flew

over my left side

and I woke up

still feeling the touch of his wings.

"Poem~5"

Poem~5

Cyber Drama

To S.

(saying to me “once a bullshitter always a bullshitter,

ensure you put that in your poem”)

Summer heat melting the asphalt

cotton like silence and air so hot

burning lungs,

in my room hearing the noise of the fan

cooling the air,

Patricia Kaas singing “Rien ne s’arrete”,

watching the white ceiling

chaos in my head,

Words,

Words,

memories circling around

like venomous serpents,

I remember,

cuz nothing gets lost in the memory of pain,

him calling me baby,

pretending to be someone else,

pretending he needs real love,

yeah, instant love was what he really

was looking for

Digits,

Cyberspace,

Cyber world

where everyone pretends

to be

someone else,

Lying,

Falsity converted into 1 and 0,

the language of machines,

I let myself being used,

I used that as a pretext to escape

my reality

my infinite sadness that comes from

a time before I was born,

my curse,

I was never pretending,

I dived into this artificial and instant love

like those that die of thirst in the desert,

imagining water

illusions that lead to death,

I used him as a pretext for my poems,

I loved him as he pretended to be

into the cyber world,

his toxic kiss,

world keeps moving around the sun,

Digital love turned into digital hate,

he cannot hurt me anymore

is just another label,

I am the bullshitter, like he said,

I will wear just another label

along with my scars painted on my heart,

“Rien ne s’arrete”,

don’t feel regrets,

would be in vain,

between him and me

Digital space

Digital feelings

Digital words,

Digital hate…

Silence will cover everything

and time will erase even memories…

But there

would always exist

into the cyberspace

traces of all digital dramas.

Poem~7

Thoughts turning into sand

Sahara inside my heart

I have my cross to bear

till I would stop bleeding

till I would get too tired

to waste

another tear

another breath

another day

into this vast desert

that eats those who get lost

winds dry their bones, their flesh

no traces of any dreams they had

no memories left,

this desert hungrily consumes

the Lost and Damned.

Unforgiving waits in the darkness

hiding dark waters of despair

illusion to torture

forever thirsty souls

tormented by sins

and pain that won’t go away…

I died for you once

now is too late to find salvation,

Sahara inside my soul…